I'm Due Tomorrow!

tomorrow is the day where my son Bradley is due. I really hope he comes I've been waiting forever for this day and now its finally here. I hope hes healthy and most of all I really hope he somewhat looks like me. Ha-ha. It will be so nice to have a Christmas baby, my entire family is excited to finally meet him. I bet hes gonna be such a great kid. I can't wait to start my new life as a mommy. I guess we will see what happens! I hope he comes tomorrow!!

One Week Left!

I can`t believe it, one more week until I meet my son. This past nine months has been the toughest but most rewarding time of my life. I can`t tell you how excited I am to finally hold my son in my arms and tell him I love him. I might be young and maybe not the best candidate for raising a young child, but I promised myself I would do anything and everything to make sure my son grows up and has a bright future. I couldn`t have made it past all this without the love and support of my parents, friends and even teachers. It’s a true blessing to have so many people around me in my time of need. Anyways I better get back to work; I have a lot to do before Bradley comes into this world!

My Hands Are So Swollen

At 37 weeks I thought that the worst part was over, guess not. My hands and feet are so swollen, I look like Shrek or something along those lines. I can barely bend my fingers. Its pretty embarrassing, as for my feet, I miss wearing my shoes. I can only wear sandals or slippers. It's depressing. I can no longer paint my own toe nails, it's nice sometimes, because that way other people can do it for me ha-ha.

9 Months Pregnant!

I can't believe I'm 9 months pregnant, I'm going to be a new mommy so soon! This entire experience has been life changing, it really has. I'm so nervous to give birth, I rarely get any sleep anymore I'm totally exhausted. I just want to hold my new son in my arms and finally give him a kiss because Ive been waiting for so long. My stomach is so big now, all I can wear are sweat pants and my school polar, trust me, it's sexier than it sounds ha-ha. In a way I'm going to miss being pregnant. As weird as that sounds, because it's almost like only I can share something so special with Bradley and soon enough I'm going to have to share :(. Pregnancy really is a awesome thing, hopefully you all get to experience it someday!

My Surprise Baby Shower!

At 35 weeks pregnant my mom decided to throw me a surprise baby shower. It was so much fun. I was so shocked, I had no idea. So many people showed up, it made me feel so good, because it’s the first time anyone has ever gone through so much trouble to plan something for me. It was all girls, obviously, but my friend Patrick decided to come, he was the only guy there, he must have felt so awkward ha-ha. I got so many amazing gifts, I was so grateful. My most favorite gift had to be the tiny puma shoes for Bradley, he’s going to be so styling once he’s born.I really hope the doctors were right about me having a boy, or else my daughter is going to have to get use to blue for the first year or two of her life. I can’t wait to meet him..or her ha-ha.Only five more weeks to go, isn’t that just crazy?

Now A days, Us Pregnant Women Have A Choice

I wasn`t aware that now today pregnant women have a choice in choosing how they want to proceed with the birth of their child. Of course every decision comes with risks. My family doctor told me that I could proceed with a natural birth, or have an Elective Cesarean. For those of you who don`t know what that is, it`s a c- section. The only difference is, is that you take your own risks and understand the complications. I really did think about it for a couple weeks. I did some research and I tried to inform myself as much as possible, but at the end of the day there’s just way too many risks that I just don`t want to take. I have faith that everything will be okay, well I hope so anyways. Now the only thing to do is prepare myself for the many hours of child birth.

My Bus Ride Is So Bumpy

My bus ride to school is so bumpy, I can`t even begin to tell you. I feel like I’m on a vibrating chair or something. The school told me that they would arrange a cab for me to commute from school and back, but at 34 weeks pregnant, still nothing. I can`t really blame them they have lots going on, but sometimes I think they forget that it’s just not really all that safe. They tell you not to go on boats, ride horses, or do anything too bumpy while pregnant because it could be very dangerous to your unborn child. I`m not in too much or a rush, I have friends on the bus, such as my headphones when people get too annoying. Alright that was mean... at least I’m honest.

I Feel So Left Out..

All my friends are free to party and do what they want. I know this is such a bad thing to think about and I should be grateful to be having a baby, and believe me I really am. I guess it’s just hard being in high school and having all your friends talk about what a great weekend they had, and being able to do all the awesome things you use to do. I wish I didn’t think that way but sometimes it just slips my mind. I miss being a normal teenager. Being a mom will be great though, I’m really excited. Sometimes I just think my friends forget about me sometimes. While they’re out having fun. I’m sure there will be times were I will be able to go out and do the things I miss doing, like maybe getting my hair done, or my nails. I never realised how much my life has changed already, I can’t imagine how much it will after the baby is born. It’s scary to think about sometimes. I know I’ll be a great mom, and I’ll love doing it.

Pregnancy And H1N1 Virus.

Did you know that out of 40,000 people that got tested for this vaccine not one of them were pregnant? The news and other sources failed to inform me and other pregnant woman about that. I waited in line for over two and a half hours for this needle and finally when I got up to the chair I was informed of this. I got up and walked out. Would you put you and your unborn baby at risk? I sure as hell wouldn’t. Everyone is sick now days. That doesn’t mean your dying of the swine flu. I simply just wash my hands and eat a bunch or vitamins. IN every related death caused by the flu, all of them had underlying health problems. I still can’t believe that pregnant woman are being told to take this shot because we are at high risk but the reality is no one has even tested it on us. People should be informed of this and not be so quick to jump to the next best thing. The H1N1 shot won’t save you. Keeping clean and eating right will.

My Halloween

This year, I sadly didn’t go trick or treating. I did hand out candy though too all the little kids. God they’re so cute. They had some pretty funny costumes; one kid was jaws, ha-ha. How do you pull that off seriously? I remember once being a kid and going out with my friends. It was such a great time. Come to think about it. I went last year, as Napoleon Dynamite. Wow what was I thinking? I probably thought I looked so great; sadly the reality is I most likely looked like a fool. It seems like every year less and less kids go out. When I was young I remember so many kids, like too many kids. To the point were I would have to wait in line for candy. God I hated that. Especially when after all that waiting, I ended up with a plain bag of potato chips. At least give me some chocolate or something? I can’t wait to take Bradley out and dress him up in funny costumes.

Maybe I’m Not Having A Boy After All..

Yesterday I was getting a scan done because I was having terrible back pains and other problems (god lately my body has been falling apart) and the doctor was doing his thing, and suddenly he asked me; Do you know what you’re having? I said yes, a baby boy! I’m naming him Bradley. He looked at me and said; how do you feel about Bradgelina? I laughed and said, doc what are you trying to say here... He looked at me and said Hollie, Bradley might not be a boy, he looks like a girl. So I started to hyperventilate, ha-ha, alright I’m kidding I didn’t hyperventilate but I got a little scared because I was told by two doctors I’m having a boy. Either way I’m going to be so happy with whatever I have, I don’t like the name Bradgelina though. I like Jillian :) Isn’t my life just full of surprises?

Wow, Only 8 More Weeks To Go.

I can’t believe it, only 8 more weeks. I remember peeing on that stick and crossing every finer and toe on my body. I look back and I’ve come such a long way. I remember my English teacher telling me to rite a blog about my pregnancy, and I wish I would have thought of that, I guess he’s just too smart. Ha-ha. Anyways back to the point, I can’t believe in 2 months my entire life is going to change, no more thinking about myself anymore I have a tiny baby that is going to depend on me. It kind of makes me feel good inside to know that something so small is going to bring me so much happiness and one day my son will grow up and be proud of his mommy. I can’t wait to paint his room and get everything ready for him to come home with me. I’m counting down the days :)

Thank You To My Friends Who Have Been So Kind To Me These Past Months.

This blog is for my friends who have been so kind and sweet to me during this hard time in my life. I’m so grateful to have people like you. Without you guys I don’t think life would be as easy, it’s so great to come to school and know that I’m accepted in your eyes. I would like to say thank you to Nadia, Jessica and Taylor for your wonderful baby gifts. They’re so thoughtful and nice. I can’t ever thank you enough for what you have all done for me. I wish somehow I could pay you all back. Someday I will, don’t worry ha-ha.

So thank you everyone, for everything. It means a lot to me.

I Literally Thought I Was Going To Give Birth.

Last week, I was lying down in my comfy bed and I suddenly got this intense pain. I thought Bradley was on his way out, ha-ha. It was such a scary thought, I`m not ready to be a new mom just yet. I can even describe to you was false labor contractions feel like because they are simply indescribable. I had tears in my eyes. Funny enough yesterday in my prenatal class we were talking about early labor and signs. What a relief, I got all the information I needed to know so I don’t go running to the hospital every time I have a pain in my back, god I’m such a woos. Speaking of my prenatal class, it’s such a great thing to go too, I get these wicked reeds dairy milk coupon so I can buy some chocolate milk, so delicious.

I’ve Always Dreamed Of Being In The Army

Ever since I can remember I’ve wanted to join the army. I’m not exactly sure what made me so interested in it, but whatever it is I can’t seem to stop dreaming about it. I guess the satisfaction of knowing your fighting for millions of people gives me a sense of great satisfaction. It looks so demanding, but there’s nothing wrong with a little discipline right? I think some people are born into things, kind of like how some people are just meant to become something or someone special. Sort of like the Shamwow guy, ha-ha. No but seriously, back to seriousness, now with Bradley on the way I don’t think I could be away for that long. There are other services I’ve looked into that I can do to help others. Such as EMS and fire fighting. I know it’s not the dream job I’ve always wanted but sometimes in life you just have to put things off for another time, and work hard to get where you want to be. Someday I hope to be in the army fighting for our freedom and the safety of our families and those to come.

Thanksgiving At The Lugossy’s

Just to clear things up, my dad’s last name is Lugossy ha-ha, for those that didn’t know. Anyways, this past weekend was thanksgiving! I was so excited to eat; I couldn’t stop thinking about food. It was so delicious, no even better, it was scrumptious. I love my grandmas cooking so much. My whole dad’s side is from Hungary (which makes me, Hungarian), so they make a really different variety of foods compared to here in Canada. Of course we had turkey. What kind of thanksgiving would that be with out turkey? Along with that we had a bunch of foods inspired from down there. Such as dumplings with pork sauce, cabbage rolls and stuffed peppers. So yummy I tell you. Bradley enjoyed it so much. I know he did, he told me. It’s times like this that make me grateful for my family, and all the small things I have. I can’t imagine not having them there with me. I’m the luckiest person in the world to have such a loving and caring family, and yes, even Cosmo got a little treat :)

Getting A Job Is Impossible.

Having a job right about now would be amazing. That extra income would make my parents so happy. I applied at many places and even got a few interviews. Everything was going great, up until the moment that I mentioned I was expecting a baby at the end of December. They froze up and asked me how old I was ( I know very well they can’t ask that question but to be polite I answered anyways) I proudly said 17, going on 18 in February. The look on the interviewers face was almost in disappointment. She looked at me and said; it’s very hard for us to employ pregnant teens. It made me feel so bad about myself. I knew I would run into some kind of problem down the road because of the situation I’m in, but for her to basically tell me ‘Sorry, your pregnant we can’t hire you’ made me just want to never apply anywhere again. I understand its a safety thing and that I can’t do all the things they would need me to do. I just wish they understood how much it would help me and my family out. I don’t want to struggle and most of all I want Bradley to have a great life and never have to worry about these kinds of things, let mommy do all the worrying.

T.H.E Kennel

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Kennel Boarding Prices

1 Dog 15.00 a day
2 dogs 20.00 a day
Additional dogs $5.00 a day per dog
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Dogs- $22.00 per night
Two dogs- Large Kennel – $37.00
Two dogs –Extra Large Kennel - $42.00, plus for 3 or more dogs $5.00 each

Cats – $14.00
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Things I Miss Doing

Even though I am only 2 months away from meeting my little boy, these past seven months have been so very long. Of course, when you become pregnant there are a long list of things, and foods you just can’t mix with. The thing I miss the most are rollercoaster’s. When summer would begin I knew I had to get my seasons pass to wonderland and ride every single coaster about a trillion times. Okay maybe a little over exaduration, but just a little bit, ha-ha. It’s a very small sacrifice in my book; I’d give up anything for Bradley. I really miss playing hockey too, the smell of fresh ice gets me every time. Maybe one day my son and I can play hockey together. Obviously he will have all star hockey legs. Food isn’t so much of an issue, because as long as there isn’t any alcohol in it, it’s okay. Eating healthy can sometimes be a Hassel; I do miss eating junk food. Who am I kidding, I indulge every once in a while.

Social Workers

I have a couple of friends who dream of one day becoming successful social workers. I think it’s a great career. In my experience, I’ve come across some really nosy workers. I am defiantly not saying all workers are the same, but there are exceptions. The other day my English teacher brought in a social worker. The things she was saying were of course informative, but I did catch her in telling us things that just didn’t fit. One being, about how self infliction is not in any way a form of suicide. Well, guess what I googled it and I did some research and yes, it is. I’m not one to say I know everything, but wouldn’t you be upset if she was giving you false information? I know that no one in this world is perfect, and that it takes a lot of courage to talk in front of classes. I just can’t stand them, especially now, knowing that since I am a teen mom I’m going to have regular visits to see “ how mommy and baby are holding up”. It’s insulting. It will be a struggle at first being a young mom but I most certainly don’t need social workers barging into my life at home.

Anxiety And Pregnancy

Ever since I was about fifteen years of age I developed a sudden panic disorder. For anyone who doesn’t exactly know what this is, it’s very common among teens and young adults. Having a panic disorder is like living in constant fear all day long. I have several attacks a day for no apparent reason. I can honestly say it’s the scariest thing anyone would ever have to go through. You have no control over your own thoughts, feelings and simply just your existence on this very planet. Over these past years, I have also developed another disorder called dedramatisation, This kind of disorder is when I cannot find a balance between reality and dreams. I often have periods of days or weeks where I feel detached from the life that I wish I was living. It’s terrifying. The thing about all of this is that I can not seek medical help. Sure I can talk to someone but these types of things can actually cause depression. Witch can be very serious. Ever since I have fallen pregnant it has gotten worse, because of the simple fact that I am worrying about raising my son. I know in time my problems will get better, but for the time being it’s like living in a horror film that just never ends, the only happiness I seem to find is looking at Bradley’s ultrasounds, that always makes me smile.

Photo Essay - My Pregnancy Month By Month

First Month:

My first month of pregnancy was very scary. So many changes are happening, not all of them are physical changes. Reading that double lined pregnancy test changed my life. Knowing I have a tiny embryo growing rapidly inside me makes you grow up faster than you’d ever imagine. By the end of the first month the baby is smaller than a grain of sand, a glimmer in your eye. It nourishes by secretions from the uterine lining. Most women have no idea they are pregnant at this time. Luckily I did, Time too start taking my daily vitamins and eating healthy!




Second Month:

From weeks five to eight that tiny grain of sand is slowly but surely becoming a little miracle. For now we will call it a tadpole. Most women suspect they are now pregnant. I feel so bloated and hungry. I guess these are the new and wonderful joys of pregnancy, ha-ha. The heart, spine, other muscles and bones are now starting to develop. It’s important to stay active and healthy because around this time I am very tired at all hours of the day. My body is working over time.

Third Month:

In my third month of pregnancy I get too see you for the very first time. I couldn’t believe my eyes; you went from a minuscule tadpole to a bean with arms and legs. You already have my amazing looks, your welcome. By this time that wonderful morning sickness finally makes it way through. The only thing you seem to like is lemon water, chocolate and of course pickles. You have excellent taste in food. I’m starting to show, just a little bit, it lets me know your growing. Look at that big head of yours!




Fourth month:

This month I get to hear and see your heart beat. It sounds like a galloping horse. It’s so amazing to see it pounding away. You are developing at such a great pace; the doctor told me you are going to be such a healthy baby. Your gender is noticeable but I think I’m going to wait just a bit longer. I still feel very sick. You seem to be enjoying a bigger variety of foods, especially fruits! You have such big feet, too go along with that big head of yours ha-ha.


Fifth Month:

I felt your very first kick! It was so strong like nothing I’ve ever felt before. Good thing our family is soccer crazy, you’re going too fit in just fine. I decided too find out your gender this month, you are a healthy baby boy. I am feeling much better now. It’s my turn too enjoy some of my favorite foods once again. You have a tiny bit of hair starting to form. I hope its brown like mine. I have much more energy to do some walking. My stomach is starting to show, grandma and grandpa are already talking to you and hoping you’d kick. I know your shy, they understand your too busy sucking your thumb ha-ha!




Sixth Month:

You’re moving around so much, kicking and punching away. I felt my first fake contraction today, called Braxton hicks. My body is getting ready for you to come out. I bought you some tiny outfits and styling pair of shoes. You now have eye brows and you can hear me talk, I try to read to you as much as I can. All of a sudden my stomach got very big. Everyone is touching it hoping to feel you moving around. I picked out your name, Bradley Peter Bonneau. Peter is your grandpa, who is very excited too meet you. All of my clothes barely fit anymore! You’re growing at such a fast pace.


Seventh month:

Sadly I am only in my first week of my seventh month. These past four weeks have been very painful. You’re tossing and turning around everywhere. Soon enough they’re wont be enough room! You have eye lashes and your brain is almost fully developed. You’re sleeping on and off during the day, I wonder if you’re dreaming. You have taste buds now, to taste all that yummy food. My body is changing a lot. You wouldn’t believe the heart burn that I’m getting Bradley. You’re so close too meeting me; I can’t wait too meet you!



Eight Month:

Bradley by this point you’re getting so big, you have come such a long way these past months. You can now close and open those big, most likely brown eyes of yours. You’re about fifteen inches and getting so chubby. Your fingers and toes are all done growing; I can’t wait to kiss them. You recognize my voice and people around me. Only one more month and you will be born into this world. You have a fan club already waiting for you.




Ninth Month:

The day that I give birth to you Bradley, will be the happiest day of my entire life. All the pain, cramping, crying and puking will all be worth it. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms and tell you I love you and look you in the eyes. You will be a healthy baby boy. Everyone around me will just want to hold you tight and never let you go. I will be so huge and my back will be hurting like you wouldn’t believe but I wouldn’t be thinking of any of that because I know in a couple days, you’re coming home with me to start our new life together.

Teen Pregnancy Rate.

Ever since I have fallen pregnant I've noticed that quite a bit of teens are also going threw the same exact thing. Teen pregnancy is at an all time high. Sex is a huge thing among teens, I know because I have experienced it. One thing that really bothers me is that some teens my age or even younger, purposely try to get pregnant. Because they say "It looks fun, to have a baby" or "My boyfriend didn't love me anymore, so a baby will fix it." Its so sad and pretty disturbing, I'm not in any place to judge because in a few months I'm going to be a mom. I just wish they knew how hard it really is, and what a sacrifice its going to be. Most of us are left without a man to play the father figure. No one wants to grow up without a set of loving parents.

My Guinea Pig Cosmo.

During the summer, Me and my friend Patrick purchased a tiny guinea pig, happiest day of our lives. We named him Cosmo, great name I know. We were so excited to bring him home. We couldn't wait to play with the little guy. We finally got his cage all set up and ready, then decided to take Cosmo outside for some grass. About five minutes pass by and he runs into the bushes in Patrick's back yard. We thought he was gone forever. We found him, ha-ha, then a couple minutes later he ran away again and this time Cosmo was gone. We lost him for a full twenty-four hours. Let me tell you, the longest hours of my life. The next day Patrick's neighbor came knocking at his door, telling him that our precious pig was found. We later found out that he was really a she. What a guy.

Teachers And Teen Pregnancy Don't Always Mix.

As you all know, I am 17 and pregnant in a French catholic high school. I was expecting school to be very stressful and hard, the students are relatively really supportive and friendly. They are always asking questions about my baby. It almost gives me a sense of relief to know I am accepted. On the other hand, teachers are not so understanding. It's really quite annoying actually. They look me up and down as if I were a piece of dirt. I can not say all teachers do this, because I have some really great teachers. The way I grew up in school is that, every student should feel safe and accepted. I can't remember reading in the code of conduct about treating pregnant teens like a piece of garbage. Imagine if I were to look at a teacher the way they look at me. I'd be suspended so fast my head would spin. I understand that having a baby is something so special and should be shared with your husband or wife, sadly reality isn't always so perfect. My parents weren't married when my sister and I were born. That doesn't mean they don't love us. If some teachers have such a big issue with students being pregnant, than maybe they shouldn't be teachers. Because I’m proud to attend school just the way I am. I'm not going to let you treat me any different.

Food Cravings During Pregnancy

Throughout my pregnancy, I’ve come across some very weird and quite delicious food cravings. Ever had sour cream on steak? Let me tell you its quite scrumptious. I must say my all time favourite snack is a big jar of pickles, all to myself, of course. Pickles are by far the number one pregnancy craving, that or ice cream. I just have to share this with you guys. I simply hear the word pickle and get excited. At the starting of my pregnancy I lost close to 20 pounds. I couldn’t keep anything down. No, not even pickles. Now I eat everything in sight, I try to eat as healthy as possible, but the words chocolate and McDonalds literally make my mouth water. You may laugh now, but one day you will too experience the joy of pregnancy, and this pickle blog will all too well, make sense.

Baby Shopping!

One of the great things about being pregnant is going out and buying those tiny outfits! They look so cute, so many colors and trends to choose from. If only it weren’t so expensive. That’s one of the downers about being a teenage parent, I’m not financially set. I depend on my mom and dad to help provide for this new edition to the family. My favourite thing to look at is the shoes, obviously, they are so small I bought Bradley a pair the other day I really think he will enjoy them and if he doesn’t well, he’s lucky they aren’t pink with flowers all over them, ha-ha! It really cheers me up when I see all these things because I know he will be comfy and safe in his new home in a few months. I could spend hours in these baby stores grabbing everything in sight I remember dressing up my dolls when I was just a kid, now I’m getting ready to dress my son, life comes at you fast and sometimes it’s unexpected but I’m making the best out of everything. Even if it’s just picking out clothes, it’s what we girls do best ha-ha!

Ultrasounds!!

One of the very best things about pregnancy are of course, the ultrasounds, sadly you only get about 3 or 4. I remember seeing my baby for the first time. He was so tiny he only had a head and tiny arms and legs ha-ha, then 7 weeks later I could see his eyes, arms , legs , heart and even spine it was such a relief to see everything was okay. It’s so awesome to see him doing his gymnastics as I like to call it, he flips, turns, punches even makes the odd face. I think he might be camera shy! It’s still hard to believe something so small can already hear and feel everything I do. I hope he knows that I love him so much and I’m counting down the weeks until I can cuddle with him and he can finally meet me. It will be the happiest day of my entire life!

My Teen Pregnancy

I am 17 and 6 months pregnant with a precious baby boy named Bradley. My pregnancy has been such a scary and wonderful experience, I never expected to be a mom, its coming way too fast! Even though my teenage party life is over, a new and wonderful life as a mom is just beginning, I went from staying out late and partying with my friends to staying at home and reading bed time stories to Bradley. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Feeling him kicking and punching away may hurt but it lets me know he’s doing okay, that's really all that matters. My clothes barely fit anymore I feel like I’m walking around with a soccer ball hidden under my shirt. I was very nervous to start school again, its nice to be around people and keep busy. The bus ride may be very bumpy and long but it gets me to where I need to be. I never cared about school, not one bit but now with a little boy on the way I have to take every second of class seriously, it’s the hardest thing I will ever have to do, haha. I’m pretty proud of myself even though some people talked me down and told me I’d never make it, I think I’m doing pretty good. Im excited for this new challenge, being a single parent will be exhausting, but I am very confident that I will do a great job,because now I have a real reason to live and wake up every morning. Sometimes I wish the baby’s father was around to help me out, but you can't always get what you want right? I guess some people can't handle responsibility. I really hope Bradley looks like me, ahh, I cant wait to dress him up in tiny outfits and kiss him all over!